Say Goodbye

My ex-husband was a drug addict and died because of it in 1991. While alive he was a real mean man, used to hit me and play a lot of head games, like most drug addicts do..anyways, I did get a divorce from him about 6 months before he od'd. It was final at the end of August of that year. Starting the next year, every August strange things would happen to me. TV's going on by themselves, cars not starting, things flying across the room, things missing etc. This usually went on for about a week and then would go away just as fast as it came. Well, I soon figured out that it was more than likely Jerry. So during these weeks I would start talking to him. I got the feeling that he was trying to say he was sorry for everything that he ever did to hurt me. A couple years ago (we) had this great conversation and I told him that he was forgiven. That afternoon I went and laid down and when it was time to get up, I couldn't. I was being held down in my own bed. I could feel Jerry talking to me, telling me that he just wanted to "hold me one last time." I told him to go away, I did not want to be held and that he did not scare me anymore. I then told him I was going to yell...try as I might, I couldn't. I was laying on my side and I could literally feel his body behind me and his leg and arm across me. Didn't really scare me, was just very annoying. I thought about trying to tip the lamp that was next to me to draw my daughter to me with the lamp light, as if Jerry was reading my mind he made it so I could not reach the lamp. Finally, after trying and trying to scream, I yelled out my daughter's name (she was 4). She came running to see me and as soon as she entered the room, Jerry was gone and has not been back, not even this last August. So, I guess he did get to "hold me - one last time."

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